Orion will rise tonight after three
Hours after a frontal passage
Brings the clearest possible October air.
All of my life I have stopped or awakened to watch The Hunter
A collection of stars, visible just so from this vantage,
My culture has grouped and named.
Here I invoke him personified in words only
To tell yet another story of awakening.
There is no difference between my seeking Orion
In the wee morning hours of October
And my halting in my tracks at his earlier prospect
As in deep winter he rises in evening
Vast, wheeling, tilted east, vaulting high across the south,
Westering.
So for my first seeing of the aurora in 1972,
So for the total solar eclipse in the Yakima River basin in 1979,
and the astounding horizon-to-horizon aurora of March 1989—
So as I have done and will always do
on encountering the heart-heating scent of blossomed milkweed
and its endemic beetles, moths, and butterflies
across my life
of pathless, numberless days,
I rise or stop for Beauty
For there is no difference
Between Beauty and me.
There is no difference between my seeking Orion
And my rising after midnight on summer Long Beach Island mornings
To view Perseid and Delta Aquariid meteors
such that one year, our landlord, learning
that I had indeed awakened
with aid of neither timepiece nor alarm
solely for the purpose of Seeing
as the evening before I had said that I would do,
said with the hearty conversational cheer of a familiar stranger,
"Dave, you're an idiot"—
And I nodded and laughed
Because his constituents and mine were nucleosynthesized by stars
And there is no difference between the Perseids and Delta Aquariids
and him
and me,
And the wordless sacredness of Beauty
Is indestructible.
There is no difference
between Orion's rising
And mine. Both—we—are flowerings
Of one flowering,
And I, a collection no less of grouped events my culture has named,
visible just so from particular vantages,
rise to Beauty no less
Than I rise to air,
water,
food,
shelter,
offspring,
companionship,
and World finally calling to me
Of my ending.
As all is one flowering,
Beauty and its Beholding
are one event;
Beauty and its Beholder,
one event.
Yet if all creaturehood Action occurs in satisfaction of Deficiency,
If there is no difference between Beholder and Beheld,
whence arises the gradient, the differential,
across which Drive develops
to compel creaturehood Action to Behold,
to seek Beholding?
Creature-brain hosts its mechanism
in the process called Mind;
The dawning in Mind of awareness
of perceiving the perceiving of Perception,
of gladness for having been brought to the giftedness of Life,
Engenders a need for ever beholding World and its beholding,
And Love is the hunger
to ever seek Beholding
In Gladness,
The precise conditions necessary for the ignition
or non-ignition
of its Star
Yet Mystery.
Thus there is no difference between my rising to deficiency of water,
food, or shelter
And my needing to behold Orion.
I stop at or rise to his prospect
because my thirst for my perception of him,
for renewing my perception of my perceiving my perception
of World,
is Love
And its satisfaction
Is Gladness.
The difference between Orion and me
is an artifact of vantage;
We are mappings
to spacetimematterenergy Particularities
of Starhood and Creaturehood
Of the single eternal impulse
that is What Is.
So is the wordless sacredness of Beauty
Indestructible.
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