Testimony



    Every believer in Jesus should have a testimony of their conversion, their story of realizing they were separated from God by their sin, and that Jesus bridges that separation by His sacrifice on the cross. And in response have given their lives to Jesus.

    I've heard and read many amazing stories and testimonies. Mine is likely dull in comparison. Only the fact that the Almighty Creator of heaven and earth would choose to save a wretched soul like mine is indeed amazing.

    I have sinned. I did not live according to God's law, I lived for myself and strived to be successful. I lived according to my fleshly desires and was controlled by it. Society is obsessed with sex and my lust for it was no different. Although at 10 years of age I briefly attended Sunday School and heard about God, I later in my high-school years formulated my own theory that there is no "life" after this life, that once I died, my soul would cease to exist. This along with worldly accomplishments and worldly pleasures left me with no hope and no satisfaction.

    It was not until I was 22 years of age that the Lord broke through to me. I was attending a university. For a few months I became increasingly depressed for no outward reason at all. I had good grades in computer science. I had completed an intership with a prominent software company. But in my heart was an emptiness that was not filled or satisfied in any way.

    One cold, wintery evening I walked to the student union building to study for finals. There I looked and noticed a pretty girl also studying. I decided to go and invite myself to sit with her, and she allowed me to join her. As we chatted she didn't hesitate to investigate where I stood in the matter of spiritual faith. She eventually asked me what Christmas meant to me. And I mentioned a few things about families and gift giving, but also that it was the celebration of the birth of Jesus. She lit up when I said that and gave me approval. At that moment I made a connection and felt I made a friend with this pretty girl, which would give any college boy gladness.

    That evening she invited me to come to church with her next Sunday. At church she introduced me to her circle of friends who were also fellow college students. In the following days I continued to meet with them. I immediately sensed the difference between these people and others I had met before. These people had a joy and a hope I longed for. A couple weeks later I was invited to come to evening services of an on campus fellowship. One fateful evening after the service the pastor asked me pointedly, "Have you accepted Jesus in your heart?" In my response I lied and said "Yes" because I was embarrassed that I hadn't. But it was clear that it is something I must do. So that Thursday evening in January of 1990, I closed the door to my bedroom and prayed for Jesus to come into my heart and my life.

    I can go on with many testimonies of evidence of how the Spirit of God was working in my life, and is still working. I now am fully convinced of God's love even for a sinner like me. And that even in the midst of hardships in this world I have hope, peace and joy.

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