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                           TANK
                      By John Stilwell
                          July 2004

DAY 4:

      It was two A.M. and the ground hadn't shook for 
hours.  The nineteen-year-old soldier cowered in the heart of 
darkness.  Only a few days earlier he had been surrounded 
by his fellow troops.  Freckle faced and innocent, he had 
beamed with confidence and yelled boasts as loud as the 
others.   In space above, the largest United Forces fleet ever 
assembled waited for the coming invasion.  They'd been told 
they would have the element of surprise and superiority in 
numbers.  Standing next to the new cybertanks he felt 
invincible!  Let the monsters come!  In the three years since 
the war started, the enemy had taken four colonies but not 
this one!  This time it was payback!   
	They came alright.   They came only hours after the 
defenses had finished being put into place.  Now he was 
cold and shaking in a muddy hole on the front lines of a 
world he'd never heard of until just a couple week earlier.  It 
was dark and raining and his friends were all dead or so he 
guessed.  The UF fleet hadn't stopped the enemy armada.   
Not long after the monsters hit dirt-side, they rolled over his 
position like a tidal wave.  Fast four-legged things darted 
back and forth between the legions of the two-legged 
horrors.  Large ambling crab creatures carrying large packs 
struggled to keep pace.  
      It was too strange and confusing a scene for him to 
quickly understand what he saw.  Were they all soldiers?  
Was the wall coming at him legions of alien warriors from 
different worlds?  Or were the two-legged ones the soldiers 
and the four-legged ones their version of war dogs and pack 
mules?  Hell, he couldn't even tell the difference between 
their transports and their tanks!  Either way, tanks, killer 
robots and a frightening array of creatures flowed down the 
hills at them like a flash flood!   It was a Hindu nightmare in 
armor with running and flying machines for heavy support.
      Ambush!  The Monsters took an awesome amount of 
punishment but just kept coming!  The Cody's lunged into 
the heart of the mayhem without a care for their own safety.  
When the enemy fell back, the troops gave a great cheer and 
started to counter attack.  That's when the flies came.  A 
swarm of tiny flying robot bombs came at them.  Thousands 
of them!  They swept in close and started to explode!   
One... Ten... A hundred at a time.  It was a massacre!   How 
do you kill flies with an assault rifle?   
	The answer: you don't.  So he had whipped out his 
emergency hole digger and dove into the fresh foxhole and 
plugged the top.  Now he imagined that he was in his own 
coffin.   His skin crawled at the thought.  It took the last of 
his self-control not to claw his way through the hardened 
foam and dirt cap above his head.  But it was two A.M. and 
the ground hadn't shook for hours.  
	He tried to pass the hours by thinking about the good 
times, like school and girls.  He used to acting silly in class.  
But that train of thought led him to the lessons; in particular, 
classical fiction.  One was about hell.  About souls banished 
there, doomed to spend eternity deep underground in tiny 
cells.  The cells were just a bit too small to stand up in and 
just a bit too narrow to lay down.  They were just like the 
hole he was in now.  He was a larva buried in the ground, 
hoping no predators came digging... But it was two A.M. 
and the ground hadn't shook for hours!  
	He needed to know what was going on in the world 
above his head.  Was he alone?   Had they won or lost?  Had 
the front moved on, leaving him behind enemy lines?  The 
young man stood up as best he could in the small enclosed 
space and pressed his head against the foxhole's earthen lid.  
Dare he take the chance of exposing himself?  In his 
spiderweb body armor, far tougher than old fashioned 
Kevlar, he felt naked.  If the monsters spotted his infrared 
signature, his heat against the cold background, he'd be dead 
for sure.
	Taking no chances, he attached one end of a fiber 
optic cord to his nightvision goggles and snaked the other 
end out like a periscope into the darkness of the cruel world 
above.  He could see the silent battlefield that surrounded 
him.   Cold shivers ran down his back when he saw a 
dismembered hand, laying on the overturned dirt, close to 
his position.  It was large and ominous.  The goulish fingers 
seemed to be reaching out for him.   He quickly twisted the 
fiber so it'd swing in an arc away from the horror.   The only 
other thing he saw was smoke pouring out of the Kurt, a 
medium sized cybertank of the new kind.  Its battered armor 
body was gouged and pulled as if it had been made out of 
clay.  The new robot tanks were supposed to be better than 
the old ones.  These weren't simple artificial intelligence 
units but the new state of the art brain dumps.  They were 
supposed to be more agile and clever because they actually 
thought like the best of the best tank commanders in the 
United Forces!  (Sigh)   It looked so pathetic now.   A child's 
toy, broken and cast aside.
	The Cody's had been the first to go.  Small, agile 
scout tanks, they threw themselves suicidally at the enemy 
in the first minutes of the attack.  It was like David against 
Goliath but the lightly armored Cody's ultimately failed to 
take the wind out of the Monsters' advance and were 
brushed away.   The Kurts stayed with the troops thus 
survived longer than the Cody's.
	In the rear, the heavy Bruno's anxiously fired shell 
after shell from their massive guns.  But few of the heavy 
rounds ever made it to their targets.  It was a lesson learned.  
Light is faster than metal.  Unbelievably, the Monsters shot 
most of the shells out of the air.  What should have been a 
lethal pounding became an impotent fireworks display in the 
sky.  
	It was either courage or claustrophobia that caused 
the young man to cautiously open up his foxhole and 
attempt to creep out into the night like a trap-door spider 
leaving his hole.  Suddenly the sky exploded and he fell 
back into the bowels of the land.   Above him the fireworks 
ended with a single pop!  It was silent again.  All he knew 
was that his fiber and goggles weren't working anymore.  
After a time, he cautiously poked his head out of the foxhole 
for a second time and wondered what had just happened.  
He didn't know until later what had saved his life.

                       *   *   *

	Kurt-311 was hurting but being a robot, he couldn't 
feel pain.  He was stuck out in the open with his camouflage 
paint burned off and his cermat armor cracked, twisted and 
pulled.  He was venting smoke from a small internal fire that 
wouldn't quite burn out. His primary fuel cells were ruptured 
so he couldn’t drive and many of his systems were fried. 
However, he could still think and his two smaller guns still 
worked.  It probably didn't matter though because it was two 
A.M. now and the ground hadn't shook for hours.
	Kurt-311 was using passive infrared to keep an eye 
on the silent battlefield.  To his left the ground shifted 
almost unnoticeably.  Then nearby an iris of red slowly 
opened like a portal to the fires of hell.  Guns aimed, he 
waited patiently for whatever was inside to poke its head out 
of the hole.  It was a man!  One of ours!   The tank felt 
relieved, then angry.  The fool!  Didn't the young punk know 
that the natural heat he radiated made him stick out like a 
sore thumb in the infrared spectrum?  He ached to call to the 
man and warn him to stay under cover but his 
communications laser had been shot off.
	A hundred meters out, there was movement.  A beast 
machine raised up on its two remaining legs.  Its nose gun 
wiggled.  Kurt-311 opened up on the enemy vehicle with 
everything he had.   His two small guns peppered the other 
but the rounds bounced pathetically off its hardened alloy 
shell.  Not hurt, it returned fire.   Kurt-311 was disabled in 
the first few seconds.  He was blind!  What to do?  Have to 
save the man!  In desperation he launched a small rocket in 
the general direction where the enemy machine should still 
be.  The rocket was meant to miss the enemy so the beast 
wouldn't try to intercept the missile until it was too late.
	A wise man once said that if deprived of their 
technological advantage, war was reduced to men with 
clubs.  In Kurt-311's last moments of life, he hoped the 
soldier was bigger than the Monster should the alien 
machine have a passenger and not be a robot like himself.  
After three years of fighting, very little was known about the 
creatures that came to loot and pillage the human race.   
      Pop!  The EMP bomb detonated, radiating a harsh 
electro-magnetic pulse.  Short ranged and safe to people, it 
was lethal to all electronics it touched.  The field expanded 
with lightning speed, frying all the circuits for a hundred 
meters in every direction.  Silence.  After a little while, the 
young soldier poked his head out of the hole in the ground 
for a second time and wondered what had just happened.  
He didn't know until later what had saved his life.


DAY 11:

	"How do you feel?" the young technician asked.
	"Where am I?" Kurt-311 asked.  He was blind and 
confused.  
	"Mobile depot," Corporal Heidi Hill, the technician 
replied. 
      Kurt started a status check.  He remembered now.  
He was supposed to be dead.  "But how?"  Most of his 
systems were coming up green.  The EMP should have fried 
all of his circuits.  He noted that his ammo bays were empty 
and his particle cannon's safety was on.  Being disarmed 
made him feel naked.  And it wasn't the fun kind of naked.  
	"You got lucky," Heidi explained as she fiddled with 
her test equipment.  "You took a real beating out there.  You 
would have been scrapped but the Monsters hit us pretty 
hard.  We need every soldier we can get.  Especially your 
kind.  Can you tell me who you are?"
	"Me?" Kurt-311 replied.  "Commander Kurtis 
Robinson, one thousand twenty seventh armored Calvary."
	"No, I mean…"
	"A robot?  Yes, I'm a brain dump of Commander 
Robinson.  I know that I'm just a shadow of his mind and 
not the real him.  I misunderstood your question."
	"Good."  The woman unplugged a circuit board and 
changed out two of its components.  When she plugged it 
back in, Kurt-311's vision returned.   She was a cute 
brunette, slender and standing half inside of his body.  "The 
master copy of your database here at depot was lost in a hit 
an run attack just after the big battle. You were pretty far 
gone.  I had to copy a lot of programs and data files from 
another Kurt.  I wasn't sure I could do it.  I really didn't 
know what I was doing.  You're really complicated you 
know.  You're beyond anything I've ever worked on before.  
The C.O. is going to be psyched to hear I actually got you 
running again!"
      Heidi bent down on her knees, disappearing into the 
access space for a moment.  Kurt felt strange sensations as 
she played with his circuits.  After a long moment, she stood 
back up with grease on her face and a circuit board in her 
hand.  "Ah… Can I ask you a question?  What's it like to be 
a brain dump?  I know that you're just a scan of some tank 
commander's brain, turned into digital data and run in a 
simulator, in the heart of this machine but…"
	"But?"
	"Well, did it hurt?"
	"Hurt?" Kurt was amused.  It wasn't the first time 
he'd been asked this question.  He knew what she really was 
asking.  "No," he replied dramatically, "I never felt a thing."  
He would have grinned from ear to ear had he had a face.
	The woman froze.  "You mean?  You gave your life 
to…"
	"To fight as a thousand instead of just one man?"  
	Heidi was speechless.  All she could do was nod her 
paling face.
	Kurt-311 roared.  The hidden speaker gave good 
fidelity to his hearty laugh.  "The real me is still alive!  God, 
where do you people get these urban myths from?"  The 
technician looked relieved.  "The MRI scan I took wasn't 
very different from what a doctor does when he scans for a 
brain tumor.  And before you ask, I know the real me is still 
alive because I've talked to him."
	"Really?"
	 "Sure.  Not very often, you understand.  There are 
over five hundred of my model.  It’d be kind'a hard for him 
to be a pen pal to all of us."  Kurt dodged the fact that he'd 
only seen himself once.  The real Commander Robinson had 
been present for the christening of his production run.  There 
was a short awkward speech.  He never liked public 
speaking and was happy that his real self was stuck with the 
chore.
	Kurt-311 flirted all afternoon.   When Heidi left he 
was debriefed, where he learned that the United Forces fleet 
had destroyed the much smaller alien taskforce but at a 
heavy cost and not until after a sizable landing force hit dirt.   
His own battalion had deflected the main ground invasion 
but at the staggering cost of ten to one.   They didn't know 
anything about the alien psychology but it was a fair bet that 
the Monsters were going to keep fighting.  With their 
spacefleet destroyed, they had no way home.
	Afterwards, he retreated to his virtual club for a 
virtual drink.  It part of an entire artificial world that existed 
inside the tank's ample computer system.  When he was on 
duty, his body was the tank.   His feet were its treads.  His 
voice was its speakers and comm links.  He could see from 
heat to across the visible light spectrum and far into the 
radar bands.  His fists were the powerful guns.  Off duty, he 
had a virtual body.  It looked just like his real self, average 
height, medium build, dark hair and blue eyes.
	The place looked like any other Officer's Club.   It 
was a box with a bar.  Ordinary people hung out, mostly in 
uniform.  (Sip)  The drink was cool and refreshing.  He felt 
numb all over while virtual girls danced on the dance floor 
that wasn't really there.  The room wasn't really there.  Hell, 
he wasn't really there either so it was OK.	
      A virtual woman walked by with her male 
companion.  They were only actors though.  Merely the 
computer pretending to be people.  They looked real enough 
but were short on small talk.  He, on the other hand was a 
person pretending to be a computer.  Very different!
      For real socializing, he had to invite over other brain 
dumps. Before the big battle, he'd linked to several of the 
other tankers to have a blowout party.  The Cody's were a lot 
of fun but got out of control.  Through the course of the 
evening, he'd grown to wonder about their maturity.  As for 
the other Kurts, well, hanging out with yourself can be 
boring.
      The Brunos were a little gruff but OK.  Commander 
Bruno Koslowski had been with the Mobile Artillery since 
Kurt was just a kid.  Bruno was happiest when everybody 
else was just a little afraid of him.  He was the get down-to-
business type who'd been doing the same job since you were 
in diapers.  You couldn't teach him a thing and if you tried 
you were in trouble because if there was anything he hated 
more than a wiseguy, it was change.
      During the selection process they'd been warned that 
it would be unsettling to wake up as a machine.  The lab 
boys described it like this.  Imagine you woke up inside a 
vending machine and you were destined to spend the rest of 
your existence making change and dropping soda cans into a 
slot for an endless line of customers.  It doesn't take much 
imagination to realize that you'd be very unhappy.  Even if 
you volunteered, you'd eventually get bored, frustrated and 
angry.  It'd only end in suicidal depression.
      Well, here he was, a soda can dispenser.   He knew 
that the new tanks were critical.  Three years into it and 
parallels could already be seen between this and earlier wars 
of attrition on Earth.  The enemy had them out classed and 
on the defensive.  In general, UF lost ten for each one of the 
monsters.  Back home industries were pumping out war 
materials at faster and faster rates.   Unfortunately, you can 
build a hundred tanks in a day but it takes years to make a 
great soldier.   The real test would be the side who lost their 
best pilots and commanders last!    That's why he had to 
volunteer!   He was the best of the best Tankers.  By letting 
the lab boys take a snapshot of his mind, they could mass 
produce him at the same speed as the tanks they needed him 
to drive.   Now every tank would be driven by crack, 
experienced personnel!  
	In a way this assignment was strangely freeing.  It 
was like playing a computer game.  It didn't really matter if 
he lost -- died -- because he was just a machine and the real 
him was living a real life somewhere.  Maybe the real him 
would get married soon.  They were and still are hooked on 
Angela.  Maybe they'll have kids one day.  He'd love to see 
pictures of them.  He imagined attending the wedding.  The 
groom standing straight and tall.  His brother, the best man, 
looking on.  Then Angela makes her appearance, walking 
radiantly down the isle.  Himself, a tank, would have to stay 
in the back row of course so everybody else could see and 
share in her beauty. 
      "He has to do the hard work, while I get to play," 
Kurt-311 thought.  Maybe I'll shoot him a hello, he decided.   
He linked up with a couple other Kurts who happily 
accepted his offer and entered his virtual club.  The party 
pulled him in and the night sped away.  He had a whole 
virtual world to enjoy during his down time.  He'd been 
reading up on how to make actors, the virtual people and 
new settings.  It was going to be a lot of fun building his 
own world.   
      At bartime, the virtual owner, another actor sent him 
home.  Kurt-311 stumbled to his virtual bungalow by the 
virtual sea.  He remembered the letter he wanted to write to 
himself.  Tired, he put together a simple how-do and sent it 
on its way.  It'd be a while before he got a response through 
the interstellar pony express.  Only starships could cross the 
distances between the stars in days and weeks.   Light and 
radio waves still took years.  Finished, he fell into his plush 
virtual bed.   "Angela…" he whispered longingly as he 
drifted off to virtual sleep.


DAY 27:

	Though the Monsters hadn't managed to land any 
aircraft when they hit dirtside, they were quick to negate the 
disadvantage.   The UF recon satellites were picked off one 
by one from the planet surface.  Likewise, UF fighters didn't 
fare any better.  The Stealthy terrain following Hellcat tank 
busters were the only survivable aircraft in the fight.  It was 
going to be an old fashion cat and mouse game.
      It had been a long hard two weeks.  Kurt-311 was 
scouting when the probing attack came.  It should have been 
a Cody doing this kind of stick-out-your-neck duty but they 
had lost all the ones in his sector in the big battle.   The 
Bruno's were too big and slow for jungle fighting so he and 
his squad of foot soldiers -- Feet -- were trying to find the 
enemy without becoming automatic pop-up bullet stoppers.
       The jungle was getting thick when two fast, bird-
legged machines ran past on either side.   They seemed to be 
the alien equivalent of the Cody's.  They were fast but didn't 
pack much of a punch.  Kurt-311 tried quickly swinging his 
main gun but hit a tree.  Angry, he peppered the runners 
with his small bores.  He crippled one but not before they 
had killed half his squad.  He cursed and spun his treads 
high speed in reverse.  Two of his Feet jumped out of the 
way as fifteen tons of vengeance heaved backwards, spun 
and charged the remaining running machine.  
      With his jammers screaming full blast, the alien 
couldn't call for help.  
It shot at him as it dodged back and forth between the trees 
but Kurt's ablative armor only laughed.  The saplings and 
bamboo-like grasses fell before the tank's massive weight.  
A bit cliché, Kurt played Wagner's, "The Ride Of The 
Valkyrie".  The runner was fast but it had to dodge zig zag 
through the trees while the tank pursued in a straight line, 
mowing the jungle down at sixty kilometers per hour!  
         They went over a hill and down into a valley.  The 
trees opened up, into tall grasses and a dozen Monster 
vehicles.   Taken by surprise, Kurt ran over a transport half 
loaded with enemy troops. (Crunch!)  He whooped and 
hollered, driving in circles, shooting and shooting.  His big 
gun wailed to the percussion beat of his small bores.  The 
music blared!  He generously spat out grenades until his 
grenade feeders were empty.   Finally spent and victorious, 
he rolled out of the burning carnage and back to the remains 
of his squad.  As fate had it, no more of his men had been 
lost and the runner had had a driver!   The first prisoner of 
the war!   With all priority, they returned to base.


DAY 29:

	"Hey hero!"  Corporal Heidi Hill shouted at the tank 
as it lumbered over to her for repair.  She whistled and 
patted Kurt-311 on the side like a horse.  "Boy did you take 
a licking!"
	"You should have seen the other guy," the tank 
boasted playfully.
	"I heard about the warpath you went on."  She eyed 
dents and scars along Kurt-311's right side.   "Keep that up 
and we'll have to rename you Cody-311!"   From the sound 
he was making when he rolled into her part of the camp, he 
probably had a couple cracked wheels.  The electric drive 
motors, one built into each of the wheels were probably shot 
too.  That'd be simple enough to replace.
	"Thanks!"
	"That wasn't a compliment."
	"Huh?"
	"You probably haven't heard, what with partying 
with the Monsters then spending all day with the Intel boys.  
We're fresh out of Cody's"
	"I don't understand?  There were over five hundred 
of them!"   
	"Best I can figure, the Monsters were scattered when 
we jumped them making planetfall.  Now that they're 
grouping, we're having a harder and harder time when we 
find them.  The Cody's were too anxious to fight.  Too 
foolhardy.  When they smelled alien blood, you couldn't 
hold them back. They'd just rush in."  Heidi laid down on 
her back, on a wheeled board.  She rolled underneath Kurt-
311's belly.  The treads looked good.  There were three 
obviously bad wheels.  As she rolled out from under the 
back of the tank, she picked up the conversation without 
skipping a beat.  "I've talked to a few.  Can't reason with 
them.  They say they agree with you then do whatever they 
feel like.  Now there aren't any left."
	That night at his club, he drank a drink to his fallen 
comrades!  "To the Cody's!"   
	"Hell of a bunch!" Angela, an actor, toasted back.   
He'd created her just that night.  Kurt was amazed at how 
sexy her figure made the slinky dress look.  He should have 
thought of this sooner!


DAY 40:

	The new and improved nightclub was classier than 
the stock officer's club the lab boys had provided him.  
Using the software toolkit, he had quickly expanded the 
room, raised the roof, added balconies and alcoves.  The 
colors were bright and lively.   The patrons, the actors 
anyway, were now based on currently popular super models 
and celebrities.  He was surrounded by the best facsimile of 
the beautiful people tax dollars could buy!
	"Let's party," he leered at Angela.  Being an actor, 
she wasn't much on conversation but the rest of the details 
were pretty good!   He touched her.  Her eyes may be vacant 
but she felt right.  This was going to be a great night!
	"God damn it!" one of the Bruno's at a nearby table 
barked.
	"Hold that thought," he said to Angela and went over 
to see what the ruckus was about.  The four Bruno's he'd 
invited in had as of late taken to hanging out with 
themselves, bitching and complaining.  They didn't like 
being put on the front lines.  "It's not how we do things," 
they'd complained.  But since they couldn't hit the enemy 
from a distance, the only option was to get in close where 
the Monsters wouldn't have time to react.
	"What's the problem?" Kurt asked socially.  "You 
guys still going on about being passed over for that 
promotion fifteen years ago?   Maybe you should let it slide 
what with you not being real and all."
	"We're obsolete!"
	"Come again?"
	"You heard us.  Got word today that we'll be getting 
new tanks soon and they're not us!"
	Kurt looked back at Angela.  Obediently, she was 
still holding that thought.  Yeah!  Actors have their strong 
points.  He turned back to the Brunos, his eyes turning last, 
"Sorry guys.  But as they said when we signed up for this, 
we're not meant to last forever!"
	They snickered.  "Did we mention that new medium 
tanks will be arriving along with the Cody replacements?"
	"More Kurts?"
	"Pay attention squirt.  We're all obsolete.  The new 
medium tanks are not Kurts.  So, when we're gone, we're all 
gone."
	"Oh…  But we're not even a year old yet."
	"Sorry about it, pup.  You forget we're the prototypes 
and engineers love to change things."
	"You know generals," Another Bruno added.  
"They'll want to get rid of the old to make room for the new.  
Meaning that we'll be getting all the suicide missions!"
	Kurt felt he should have been concerned by this 
news but wasn't.  He was anxious to get back to Angela so 
he pretended to be depressed and left.


DAY 45:

	Word was passed down that there were Monster 
sightings two valleys over.   This was a bad sign.  It meant 
that the enemy had infiltrated their lines and half of the 
colonists on this world were only a couple hundred klicks 
further on.   
      Kurt rumbled past a pair of Brunos.  He lit them up 
with his secure communications laser.  "Hey guys!  How's 
life?"
	"Sucks!" they snarled.
	"Good to hear it!" Kurt replied cheerfully and 
continued on down the road.


DAY 48:

	The Monsters made better time advancing towards 
the coast then expected.   Kurt laid down suppressing fire as 
the pilots of two downed Hellcat tank busters limped to 
safety.  So far, the capital city was untouched.  The Brunos 
proved to be poor close-in fighters so they had been moved 
to the outskirts of the city, the last line of defense as the 
population evacuated.   Strangely, the Monsters should be 
able to hit the city but so far hadn't.  It was as if they wanted 
to give the locals time to flee.


DAY 50:

	Perimeter duty was as boring and stressful as it gets.  
The tank was left on automatic again while Kurt drank 
inside his virtual nightclub.   It was one of the perks of 
living inside one's mind.  He clinked shots with his two 
Angela's and looked forward to experiencing male fantasy 
number one.  Finally, he'd had enough teasing and they left 
for his bungalow.  
	The three staggered into the bedroom.   He'd had so 
much to drink that he could hardly see straight.   He 
playfully slapped one of the Angela's on the rear as the two 
shapely women slowly got undressed and slid into his bed.  
Kurt found the spray can of whipped cream and tumbled in 
between them.
	Suddenly, he was cold sober and staring at the 
jungle.  His body was the tank.   His feet were treads and his 
fists were guns.  His automatic sensors had detected 
something out there and yanked him into the real world.  His 
simulated drinking was automatically filtered out when he 
exited his virtual world.  After all, you couldn't have a drunk 
tank!
	Moments later, a general drove up and asked Kurt-
311 how he was doing. Kurt made the appropriate response.  
The General continued with a little more small talk and a lot 
of morale boosting slogans before continuing on with his 
inspection of the front line.  As the General disappeared 
down the path, Kurt scolded himself for being so careless.   
He didn't know what they could do to him for abandoning 
his post but there had to be something nasty.  He'd never 
take a chance like that again!  An hour later he was back in 
bed with the two Angela's with the tank on automatic.
	

DAY 52:

	"How come you never come visit me except when 
you want something?" Heidi joked.   
	Kurt rolled up to the pretty technician, leaving an 
ugly black smoke trail in his wake.  "Because if I did, you 
might think I was partial on you."
	"Oh yeah?  Well, big boy, let's see what you've got?"   
Two mechanics hooked up diagnostic equipment while 
Heidi walked around behind and opened the access hatch to 
his power unit.  "My but you really are a big boy!" she 
declared, trying not to laugh at her own joke.
	"You must say that to all the Kurts!"
	Heidi turned serious, "Not anymore."
	Kurt sobered up.  "How many?"
	"There can't be any more than thirty five of you left."
	"Damn!"
	During the repairs, Kurt retreated to his nightclub.  
He'd modified his virtual body so he was a little taller and 
had washboard abs.  Angela, ever attentive, sat next to him 
with her new and improved figure.   "Four hundred and sixty 
five of me gone," he lamented.  For the first time since 
waking up as a machine, he felt mortal.  The fighting was no 
longer a game.


DAY 54:

	Kurt left the mobile depot and rolled out of the city.  
At its edge, he passed a general.  The man was furious.  He 
was angrily screaming orders at a Bruno.  "How dare you 
refuse a direct order!   I will have you dismantled you 
stinking piece of …" he raged.  
      Kurt would have found the sight of the puny man 
trying to intimidate the forty ton killing machine humorous 
but he had big problems on his mind.   He'd just received a 
reply to his letter to the real him.  It was from his mother.  
She obviously mistook him for being a friend of the real 
Kurt.   In the letter she tearfully explained that Commander 
Kurtis Robinson had been killed in action.  His transport had 
been hit on a mission somewhere.  God!  He hadn't even 
gone out fighting!
	

DAY 56:

	Rage changed to fear as he realized what he'd done.   
He'd rammed a Monster heavy tank, flipping it upside down.   
It was more agile then himself and most of its millipede legs 
still worked.   The only thing keeping it from righting itself 
and finishing him off was the fact that he was sitting on it.  
It kept trying to flip him off but his fifteen ton bulk was too 
heavy.  Still, it tried.
	It was a Mexican standoff.  At the current angle, 
only his small bores could hit it and they were ineffective on 
this monster.   If he got off so he could use his big gun on it, 
it'd certainly kill him.  Other enemy forces came to its 
rescue.   "Help me!" Kurt screamed over all his comm 
channels.   His particle cannon shattered runner after runner 
as they came out of the woods at him.   Feet, both his and 
theirs were too smart to get close to this battle of the titans.  
His reactive armor blew off in the first volley from the 
intense barrage and his ablative hull below was beginning to 
erode.
	A Hellcat popped over the horizon and erupted in the 
tempest.   Then when Kurt thought he had the upper hand, 
the metal millipede monster below him exploded, actually 
flipping himself through the air, landing on his back.   From 
his helpless and awkward position, he watched the tree line 
explode and collapse.   In a few minutes, it was all over.   
Several Bruno rolled by on either side.   Kurt shot one with 
his communications laser.  "Thanks buddy!  I'm glad you're 
on our side!"
	"Screw you!" the Bruno snarled back.


DAY 57:

	Kurt was really shaken.  He'd almost died!   The real 
him was dead so that left himself and seventeen other Kurts.   
They may just be Ghosts in the machines but at least they 
were still kicking!  Jesus!   He could have died!





DAY 58:

	There were skirmishes everywhere.  They had been 
pushed into the city. Where was the air support!   The fleet 
should be bombing from space!   Where were they? 
	 Kurt was scared and on the defensive.  Panic was 
passing through the scattered ranks like a fever.   Must 
think!  If there was only time to think!  He crashed through a 
warehouse wall and hid in the shadows.   Feet ran past the 
large hole in the wall he'd just made.  Since they were 
running from the fight, why shouldn't he?  What good was 
he dead?  If he saved himself then he could fight another 
day!   Wasn't that the point?  Eventually one side or the 
other would run out of soldiers to kill.   So, to kill as many 
of the enemy as possible, he'd have to pick his battles.  Run, 
Ambush and run!   
	A thousand voices were yelling over the comm 
channels in his head.  The ground vibrated.  Millipedes!  In 
terror, he blindly rammed through the nearest wall, bursting 
out into the street.  Missiles screamed over him.  Smoke 
trails of dead and falling Hellcats rose to the heavens. The 
building he'd just exited exploded as he turned and fled 
deeper into the city.  There was chaos everywhere!  They 
were routed!
	He figured he could hide himself under the sea.   He 
was waterproof after all, so he headed for the port.  At the 
top of the hill overlooking the bay, he looked back.   Smoke 
and fire blanketed half the horizon.   Explosions boomed to 
his left and to his right.  At the shoreline, Feet were 
climbing onto fastboats.  One was so overloaded that it was 
capsized as he watched.
      He remembered the mobile depot, behind in the 
midst of the fighting.  Surely it had been overrun by now.  
Did she escape?  She had to be safe!  He couldn't go back to 
check.  It'd be suicide!  As long as he survived, the real him 
wasn't really dead.  In a strange way, he had become the real 
him!  He wasn't a mere machine but a unique individual who 
deserved the same right to survive as the soldiers below, 
fleeing into the ocean on fastboats.   He started to roll down 
the hill but stopped when he thought he heard the word, 
"depot," in the sea of voices screaming for help over the 
airwaves.  "Heidi!" he called.  Nothing.
	Kurt stood there in indecision for several long 
moments.  Finally, he spun and sped back into the fight.  
The Monsters were closer behind him than he'd realized.  
The enemy were taken by surprise by the ferocity of his 
counter attack.  Charging, he fired his particle cannon so fast 
and continuously that its barrel glowed red!
	Screaming insults, Kurt crunched over enemy troops 
in the narrow streets and rammed several runners.  
(Screech!) They crunched beneath his treads and ground 
into the concrete walls on either side of the narrow alleys as 
he rampaged across the city.   Finally, he angrily burst into 
the depot grounds.  God, it was still occupied!  The 
personnel had been cut off and were dug in.
	Kurt spun around shooting anything nonhuman that 
dared to stick its head in the open.   Monster troops 
abandoned their assault on the main depot building or died 
where they stood.  As fast as he could, he circled the 
building over and over again.   He was determined that 
nothing would cross his circle of death.   They'd have to go 
through him first!
      Three runners shattered before they could use their 
needle-nose guns on him.  Then a millipede machine burst 
into the large parking lot!   Kurt raced at it blasting away 
with everything he had.  The gleaming monstrosity fired 
lightning back, blowing his turret off!
      Unfazed, Kurt kept on coming, hoping to ram and 
flip it over like before.  It fired a second time, ripping open 
his side.   Fuel sprayed through the huge gaping wound and 
caught fire.   Mechanical and electronic components hung 
out in greasy chains as he slid, spraying sparks to a halt at 
the monster tank's armored feet.  
	In his fading vision, he saw a line of houses behind 
him collapse.  Two Kurts and five Brunos exploded onto the 
scene, firing away.  Kurt-311's daring counter attack had 
rekindled their courage.  Charging, they trumpeted battle 
music as loud as their speakers could blare.  One of the 
Kurts was instantly gutted by a direct hit and rolled to a 
silent stop but the rest kept coming.  The millipede twisted 
under the violent hammering.   One of the Brunos and the 
other Kurt caught fire but the rest kept coming!  The 
Millipede crumpled and erupted.  The monsters retreated!  
Kurt-311 died.  
      Across the city, the few remaining cybertanks 
pursued.  Soon the ground stopped shaking and the 
surviving technicians and mechanics poked their heads out 
of the ruined building.  It wasn't until later that they knew 
which cybertank had saved their lives.


DAY 72:

	The Monster's back had been broken and mopping 
up operations were underway.  It'd take a long time to be 
sure that they'd chased down every last one of the vile 
creatures.  The civilian population was returning to their 
homes and the long job of rebuilding had started.  
      The sun was high and hot when the transports 
carrying the new cybertanks landed. Corporal Heidi Hill was 
on hand in the staging area to help coordinate the unloading.  
Ten by ten the new models rumbled out of the ships and 
headed to the new permanent depot for inspection before 
being sent out after the enemy.   First came the light scout 
Oscars followed by the Davids, the new heavy artillery 
tanks.   The Amandas, the first of the anti-aircraft 
cybertanks rolled past followed by the new medium tanks.  
When Heidi saw that they were Kurts, she couldn't help but 
shed tears of joy.

                           The End

Author's notes:

This is the 1st of three robot tank stories. I grew up reading BOLO books. I wanted to write my own robot tank stories but didn't want to copy Keith Laumer's work. Spending much of my adult life writing software, I found creating a character who is a machine is very hard! Most fictional machine characters are people who just happen to be made of metal. The two exceptions I can think of are HAL in Arthur C. Clark's "2001, a Space Odessey" and Laumer's BOLO's. Machines can't have personalities. They only follow a set of instructions a person has written. Any unpredictability is caused but software bugs.

As an undergrad, one of my classes was in writing digital simulators. You create a virtual environment. Inside this environment you build your prototype machine. You test it, working out the bugs. Planes are designed this way. They are "flown" many times in the computer before the real plane is ever built.

In the case of a calculating machine, once it exists in a virtual environment, you can use it. You never have to build the real machine.

One of my Master's courses at Johns Hopkins was Artificial Neural Networks. The idea is to design a machine based on the human brain. In the simple sense, you create human-like machine neurons. You then teach the network to perform a job. When I realized that if you could somehow scan a person's brain to determine all the neuron connections, biases, etc... you could take this database and put it into a simulated neuron network and simulate a human. I had it! A working concept that I could use to create my fictional machine character. To date I have written three Tank stories. I also used this idea in my Novel "Death Is..."


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