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Music: "Somewhere Over the Rainbow" by Israel Kamakawiwo Ole'

With Me

I thought I heard you call my name

whispering in the wind

And as I turned to walk away

I heard you call again.

A gentle breeze blew my way

I smelled you in the air

And though I reached out for you

I stood in solitaire.

The sun beat down upon me

With warmth from up above

I really miss you baby

And still give you all my love.

I looked around to find you

Your face I did not see

Yet, somehow I knew

You were there with me.

Don't think I do not feel

Because you see no tears.

A river rages deep inside

of grief, and loss, and fears.

Just because I do not cry now

Don't think my hearts not broken.

I keep inside the misery

Of words not to be spoken.

Sometimes I smile or crack a joke

So you won't see the pain.

Or notice how my hands will shake

Or how I've gone insane.

Each time I chance to think of her

My heart is ripped asunder.

The loss I feel is mine alone

You will not see my thunder.

I have a face i put in place;

It's what I wear when folks are there.

For those only who want to see

The way they think I ought to be.

I live in times that have no light,

Just cloudy darkness, endless night.

I no longer see the sun,

I laugh but never feel the fun.

When I arise to start a day,

I stumble as I make my way.

I don't know who's really me,

I'm not the one I used to be.

The future is so bleak to me,

I choose to not let others see.

So when people stop to ask,

I hide behind my smiling mask.

As I look at your name

Please say it's not true

Chiseled in stone

Shiny and new.

This can't be happening

It must be a dream

I've been asleep now

Forever it seems.

It's not right

And life's not fair

I call for you

Though your not there.

As you told me

I tried not to cry

Yet, there's a hole in my heart

Filled with questions of why.

I cry day and night

Missing you

And for all the things

We still wanted to do.

My soul will scream

The rest of my life

With pain so deep

it cuts like a knife.

I try to move on

Yet, I'm so lost without you

You were my strength

In all I would do.

My eternal love

is as no other

A special bond shared

From daughter to mother.

Last Chance To Weep

A year has passed and still you grieve,

The tears flow down your face;

You miss her voice, you miss her laugh,

Noone can take her place.

But when you think of where she is

In Heaven's land so fair;

You know your weeping for yourself,

Cause there's no weeping there.

Her closest friend is Jesus

And He takes her by the hand,

He talks with her for hours

As they walk in Heaven's land.

There's light once more in her eyes,

Her smile is always near;

So cry your tears while your down there,

Cause there's no crying here.

Here is where she's happiest,

Here's where she belongs;

She's praising God with every breath

And joining in the songs.

A joyful glow is on her face

And wonder fills her eyes;

So let your tears flow if you must,

Cause here, nobody cries.

She has a mansion that is grand

And friends that she can't number;

Eternal celebrating

In this land where there's no slumber.

And she shines brighter than the stars

And Angels seek her face;

So grieve and miss her while you may,

There's no grief in this place.

If she could speak to you once more,

One thought she would repeat:

That now, her happiness is full,

That now, her joy's complete.

That Christ will be returning soon

And all creation waits;

He'll wipe the tears from every eye

Just inside Heaven's gates.

One day you'll be together, Yes!

And that day, time can't sever;

There'll be no death or parting then

In that Blessed Forever.

You'll see her anytime you wish,

What joy your hearts will reap!

So cry your eyes out while on earth,

It's your last chance to weep.

Never once did I imagine

As I carried you in my womb,

That I would have to face

The nightmare of losing you.

Never once did I imagine

Whenever I held you near,

That the day would ever come

When you wouldn't be here.

Never once did I imagine

That life could be so unfair,

Whatever did I do

To deserve such a cross to bear?

Never once did I imagine

All the while I loved you so,

That there would be a price to pay

but with grieving, I now know.

Never once did I imagine

I could go on living without you,

But with love, time, and hope,

It's something I will learn to do.

Never once did I imagine

In spite of all the pain I can recall,

That I would consider myself blessed

For just having you at all.