Nope. Not dead yet. Just extremely overwhelmed. It almost
seems like this is becoming the norm, and let me tell you...it isn't cool.
I am growing very tired of having my world rocked and set into a tailspin. I
know that God is always with me, but I really wish he wasn't so omnipotent, because I am not. I can do all things through
him who strengthens me, but honestly, right now, I don't want to. My plate is full to overflowing. I have tried
to be there for friends and family when they have had struggles. I have tried to be strong and to be an encouragment
in the dark days. I have tried to let my faith shine when others are stuggling to find theirs. I have tried.
And it seems the more I HAVE tried, the more I AM tried. I am sure that is a Biblical concept. I know that
I have heard sermons and lessons taught that describe how when we are trying to do good, we will be attacked from all sides
in an effort to distract. Why is it that I am not finding this knowledge comforting?
As you can see, it has been a bad day. Actually, it has been one of
many bad days in recent weeks, so I have decided to resort to coveting. I am coveting your prayers - all two of you
who probably read this blog on a consistent basis - or at least as consistently as I update. Please pray. The
details are too numerous to mention, but I need wisdom. I need discernment. I need strength. I need clarity
of thought. I need some bright spots in some really dark days. I need energy to face the issues before me.
I need rest.
