I sat down at the computer to do bills and I sat and sat and thought, “Should we go ahead and apply for this loan to help complete the adoption?”  I’d been putting it off knowing we had just been told that the wait was currently twelve months for a referral and we'd have plenty of time to save for it.

 

 I sighed.  I know that God sped Max’s adoption and even the paperwork (including government) in our current adoption, but twelve months is twelve months….or is it?

 

When did God ever go by man’s timeline?  He obviously hadn’t in our paperwork, but what about our adoption.  It scared me because I felt I wasn’t being faithful.  God is in control not an agency, not the Ethiopian government, but God. 

 

I turned to Thomas and said “We need to apply for this loan today.  What if God speeds this up for us?”  Thomas looked at me with a gleam in his eye and a smile on his face “Honeyyyyy…” he drew out the word “That’s what I’ve been trying to tell you.”

 

You know what?! He had!  He’s been telling me all along in a humorous way “People are going to have to stop praying or we’re going to have our little one tomorrow.”

 

The prayer cover in this adoption has been phenomenal!  We have such a wonderful Church, wonderful family and friends and feel like we just don’t deserve it.

 

I can’t promise not to over analyze this or get anxious occasionally, but I will try to trust and just know that God is handling this.  I keep telling myself to expect 11 more months and I won’t be disappointed, but where is the faith in that?!  If God wants us to learn in this wait…so be it, but until He tells me that, I will expect God’s continued miracles and hand in our adoption….I will walk in faith and trust that our timeline belongs to God.