Forever In Our Hearts

Jewell (my Angel Eyes), you came to me when my heart was broken by the lost of Zeus.  I swore that I would not open my heart to another.   I think you sensed that and you were determined to get me to love you.  Well my little angel you did.  You had quite a personality and let everyone know it.  Jewell, you were the clown, the princess, and lady of the house.  Who knew when you got sick in December that was the beginning of the end?   I tried everything I could to make you better but I couldn’t.  When I heard it was cancer my heart dropped.  Not again.  I would of done anything to make you better.  Jewell the way you looked at me to make it better and have the hurt go away broke my heart.   I wish I could of my angel but I couldn’t.  I knew some day I would have to make that decision to let you go and I dreaded that day.  The day had come on January 12th.   I knew I had to let you go that night.  I could see the pain in your eyes and I needed to take it away.  Please know I did what was best for you. 

 

You came so fast into my live and left the same way.  I feel you came to me to ease the pain I had and  you certainly did that.  Now the pain of   losing you is there.  I know you are in a better place and you are happy.   I will never forget what you did for me.  Keep watching over me Angel Eyes. 

This is my Baron, a sheltie.  He was born on February 1, 1984 and passed away in August of 1999.  He was such a great dog. He would tell my mom by barking if my brother and I were fighting.  He'd protect me though.  Baron slept under my blanket with his head sharing my pillow every night.

Zeus you came to me with problems and I wasn’t sure if I would be able to deal with them.  Over the years we became soul mates and whatever problems came up I knew the two of us could handle them.  Zeus when you passed away a part of me died that day. When I took you to the vet’s I felt that you would be better the next day like usual.  The vet called and said for me to get there as soon as I can, my heart sank.  When I got there you looked so helpless.  I didn’t know what I could do for you to make you better.  Then, they said that dreaded word Cancer.  A large tumor in your liver and spleen.  This wasn’t happening to my Zeus.  I couldn’t believe it.  As I sat with you for 7 hours in the cage I knew I had to do something for you.  I wouldn’t let you suffer.  I wouldn’t let them do surgery on you just to have you be with me for a few more months.  I knew I had to let you go.  That was the hardest thing I had to do.  I told the vet I would be with you to the very end.  When he gave you the first shot I looked into those beautiful eyes of yours and knew this is what you wanted.  Then the second shot.  I had my doubts that I was doing the right thing but I didn’t want to let you go.  I had your head in my lap and I felt the last breath you had taken.  I didn’t want you to be alone because I knew you would were scared.  But, I know you are happy and running around like you did when you were health.  I could swear I see you walking up the steps or get a glimpse of you on the carpet in the dining room.  You are always with me.  And at times I can feel that last breath on my hand.  I know that is the way your way of telling me that you are okay and you are with me.  Zeus I love you and miss you with every day that goes by.  Be happy my love.

Brogan Saucedo (Clarinka Tom)
May 19, 1999 to February 8, 2005
2nd Round Scottish Derby runner, won 1st race in Ireland at Tralee in 29.62. Mascot for GRA/America