These are some poems I wrote there kind of depressing much like the art you can have them for any reason you like . I call them poems but it is really just my thoughts let to wonder

Deicide

Something given to me

Something taken away

A beautiful moment in time

But beauty’s never to stay

The beginning of the end

An end of a beginning

Try as I might

There’s no way of winning

Castles always crumble

A world of steel will soon rust

And a heart made of stone

Will crumble to dust

So everything given

Is a monstrous lie

And in my desperation

I wish even god will die

I should have told you

How did you bring yourself

To walk out the door

When you said that you loved me

The very night before

How can you hate me

What did I do

No matter how I try

I can never hate you

I remember how you held my head

tight against your chest

And I laid awake all night

And didn’t let you rest

I loved you too much

To simply go to sleep

I wanted to watch you sleeping

And feel you breath so deep

Remember haw you kissed me

So hard it caused me pain

And now I’d wish to kiss you back

But wishes are in vain

I cant imagine the rest of my life

Without you by my side

There’s a graveyard in my heart now

For a love that up and died

But sadness will find it’s way to you

For what you did to me

My evil wishes will surround you

A black cat you’ll always be

For no matter haw far you try to run

Under my power you’ll always stay

Because when you made that deal with me

You gave you soul away

Left to the shadows

An empty spot beside me

Where once you sit and talked

A broken board upon the porch

Where once across you walked

An empty kitchen that was happy

An empty bed where once you laid

An empty place within my soul now

A memory that won’t fade

A ghost within my heart now

That torments me day and night

Attacking me at my weakest

With overwhelming might

Leading me thou the shadows

With sadness as its guide

Unto the heart of Satan

With arms out open wide

And in those ancient shadows

Forever I shall stay

My pain and memory with me

Until my dieing day

The mourner

I’m not living

and I’m not really dieing

I’m not doing much

I’m merely surviving

It all seems so pointless

As something gone wrong

I’m surrounded by people

And I’m still all alone

I don’t like the night

And I cant stand the day

I don’t want to die

I want to fade away.

The sadness of me

I’m sitting here in sadness

And trying not to think

Because every time a memory comes

My heart begins to sink

My house is not a home now

It’s filled with desolation

And somehow I find myself watching the door

In hapless anticipation

I know your never coming home

You’ve left me here to die

I know you probably hate me

And I’m the reason why

But I would give myself to death

Upon the rising son

If I could spend one night with you

And have my suffering done

The thought of you with another

Puts a sinking in my chest

I know I wasn’t what you want

But I always tried my best

So now you’ve slipped away from me

And found your someone new

But I can’t carry on right here

With the memories of you

So I hope to go away now

Where no one knows my name

And I’ll never share my heart again

Because nothing seems the same

To be with you

To be part of you

To hear your voice

To see you nakedness

To touch that nakedness

To run my hand over the softness of you

To smell the sent of you

To taste you

To be inside you

Moving around inside you

Forcing my way inside you

In your guts

In your body

In you soul

Filling myself with you

With your passion

With your pain

Overfilling myself with you

Until I burst

And my love for you

My pure love for you

Comes spilling out

Just to be close to you

To be one with you

To be you

There’s a ghost in this house

It haunts the rooms in perfect silence

No one sees it

No one hears it

No one speaks to it

No one speaks of it

It just wonders unnoticed

Unloved

Undesired

Unfeeling

It once was alive

It once was seen

It once was heard

It once was loved

It once mattered

No one cared when it died

No one visits it’s grave

It wonders it the darkness

In the silence

In it’s sadness

Mourning

Forever mourning

Mourning times passed

Mourning a love passed

Mourning a life passed

It’s own life

The ghost is neglected

The ghost is forgotten

Like a dog tied up and left to die

It wasn’t fun anymore

It wasn’t existing

It wasn’t new

It wasn’t needed

It was time to throw it away

It won’t need love

It won’t need company

It’ll just fad away

And everyone’s lives can go on

Without that ghost

The ghost of me

A fly is caught in a ribbon

It pulls at fest it tries to get free

It realizes it’s caught

Now it’s desperate

It must get loose

It cant stand it

Getting loose is the most important thing in the world

It cant think of nothing else

Everything that’s ever happened in it’s life doesn’t matter

Everything that’s going to happen doesn’t matter

There is no past

There is no future

There is just now

It fights harder

It struggles

And then it excepts it

It’s never getting free

It’s strength is low now

It’s hopes are low

It dies

It life never mattered

Me and the tree